Author: kmmccaleb

He is not ours; we are His

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When you meet God, you cannot put the meeting into words, much less the God you meet. God cannot be an object of our concepts. Concepts shatter like broken eyeglasses, like broken eyes — in fact, like broken I’s. No longer am I I and God my Thou, my object; now God is I, and I am his thou, his object. The illusion that is destroyed is not the self itself but its usual standpoint in which I am I, the center, and God appears on my screen somewhere. This self is illusion, and God shatters it by reversing the standpoint: we appear on his screen. We are his object, not he ours.

~ Peter Kreeft from his book Three Philosophies of Life

So apparently

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my camera has a focus lock button. Who knew?

It’s a funny little slide-action lock on the back of my camera that, well, locks the focus in place. Though small, this funny little thing was cause for much angst, consternation, frustration and worry on my part. For about the last three months, I have lived with taking photos with the focus “jammed” to the upper left-hand quadrant of my focus field. I was picturing a major computer repair to my not-so-old camera. I think I had about $1000 as the repair estimate in my head.

So, much to my relief and the amusement of the camera repair man and my dear friends Kim and Bethany, I am now educated in all things related to focus locks! I think I made the camera repair guy’s day. He gave me that look. Something that goes like this, “poor thing, she is so completely camera illiterate. Someone please get her a Polaroid camera!” Should I mention the fact that Kim and Bethany were laughing rather loudly as this whole scene unfolded? Sympathy? What sympathy?

Glad I can provide a little entertainment in their worlds.

PS – I’m also proud to say that I’ve added a new most embarrassing moment to my rather large repertoire. No, it’s not the above story. But you’ll have to call me for that story, because I’m not going to blog about it. Maybe when I’m 87 I will.

All That’s Left

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Love this song…

Slowly drawn moths to the flame
We think we’re strong we think we’re anchored down
Then it comes, the hurricane
Down come the walls up comes the foundations
We’ve been building on
And suddenly….we’ll see that

(Chorus)
All that’s left is to love
That’s all that we have
That’s all that we ever really had and
All that’s left is to love
That’s all that we have
That’s all that we’ll ever have

So let us look into each other’s eyes
And read the stories written there between the lines
And take the list off all the wrongs we keep
And tear it into pieces let mercy be the only
Thing we’re harboring
Cause eventually… we’re gonna see that

This is why our hearts are beating
To love each other as we have been loved
Everything else is a fleeting shadow
But love endures all things, believes all
Things and hopes all things
And love never ends
Love never ends

All we really ever have
All we have in the end is love

Oh the only thing that matters is to love
This is the only lasting treasure

Love endures all things and believes all
Things and hopes all things

Steven Curtis Chapman

This morning

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Chiro appt (for my ailing back)
Starbucks chai
FILTHY car washed (the inside is still gross, but at least now I can fool people about my cleaning skills)
New keyboard (for my ailing back)
New laptop set up with keyboard and mouse (for my ailing back)
Figured out how to blow up my desk chair (exercise ball) with the electric pump instead of taking an hour with the hand pump (for my ailing back)
Listening to my Josh Turner station on Pandora
Super glad it’s Friday!

This morning

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If a man or woman is called of God, it does not matter how untoward circumstances are, every force that has been at work will tell for God’s purpose in the end. If you agree with God’s purpose He will bring not only your conscious life, but all the deeper regions of your life which you cannot get at, into harmony.

~ Oswald Chambers, September 29

A couple evenings ago

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Massive storm blowing through about 15 miles north of the barn.
Rapid-fire lightning, both vertical and horizontal.
My big beautiful horse standing out in the field watching the storm and keeping an eye on my approach.
Standing next to him, with his mane whipping against my face in the wind.
Spending several minutes there, marveling at the intense beauty and hugeness of the evening and its storm.

The past few months

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  • lots of travel, both work and personal
  • holding my new nephew, Declan William, born in the ambulance on the way to the hospital
  • slow dancing to Mat Kearney with Madigan Luke
  • finding a wonderful trainer for Caspian – he starts his training this next week!
  • a cousin, my own age, going through major surgery and the sobering fact that we are all so frail
  • putting down our old horse, Billy, of 32 years. my heart is still hurting. and processing.
  • time on the mountain with two close friends and Dad in Flag, healing and restoring
  • time on the mountain with two close friends in CO, good food, incredible beauty, fellowship
  • my lil sis moving close and how special and wonderful that is
  • looking forward to two friends getting married to each other and I couldn’t be more excited for them
  • looking forward to a new small group in the fall
  • looking forward to going to Israel in the fall
  • amazed at God’s abundant blessings and provision
  • cooler weather starting to make an appearance
  • both thankfulness and conviction that I “live in a bubble”
  • gratefulness that the Christian walk, while not easy, is simple